Last night i suddenly realised that it has been almost 3 months that i have wrote something on my website. I have been asked questions on my email regarding that and i even dont have time to reply them all. So, for this i apologize to my readers. And for me being busy in worldly worries i blame our society for it.
Recenly, in july i joined a company called Panalpina as a Data Processing Operator. Offcourse, by joining such a big organization it is a great achievement for someone who is from a middle class family. But again, it feels life was just great when i was working from home as a Freelance Web Developer. Now, its like working for the Company and also, on the Websites i have created after office hours. Life has become hectic and I have to re-schedule all my daily chores.
Since few nights, I have acquired a sort of phylosophical approach to this new theme that my life is shaping up in. My mind went back 10 years ago (1998) when i had just passed out from my 10th class examination and life was full of happiness and peace. There was no place for worldly worries or tensions. Life was full of Joy, Entertainment and Love. But again, it does not settle down as you have always wanted it to be. People keep on asking you questions and you keep on answering them one by one. Atleast, it is true in my Life. With peopl, i mean society as a whole. It includes also your near and dear ones.
10 years back when i had passed out my 10th class, i had to choose between two sets of subject viz. Science or Commerce. From my childhood i had a very great inclination to the subjects related to Science and Technology, So i opted for Science for my further studies. On my decision to choose Science subjects for further studies there was a wave of strong opposition from friends and certain family members questioning my abilities that -
Will you be able to pass out with such difficult subjects ? Are you sure you want to do this ?
I remained silent and found world is so impatient. I often laugh now at the present moment at this impatience they showed in those days and often related this to these lines of T.S Elliot's Hollow Men:
Between the conception And the Creation
Between the emotion And the Response -
Falls the Shadow..
Anyhow, time passed by. I certainly was one of the brightest students in my batch. But life again had to teach me some more bitter lessons. I failed on my first attempt to pass my 12th class examination. The world\'s doors seemed to be crashing down on me and people who questioned before again rose their heads with different sets of questions now -
Are you sure you want to attempt again ? There is still time to think and change your career path, why dont you opt for something else ?
I again remained silent. I thought its again time to retaliate and shut their mouths. I worked hard, really hard to atleast pass my examination. After passing my examination, I opted to go to Pune for my higher studies (Bachelors) to do a course in Computer Science. Again, they came up with questions -
Will you be able to live alone ? Away from your Family ? How will you cope with different world in Pune ? You were not able to pass on your first attempt in 12th Class, Are you sure you want to go for further studies ?
Again, i laughed at their impatience. I reminded myself that the best way to win was to not need do win. The best performances are accomplished when you are relaxed and free of doubt. I decided to take things as they come. And certainly, I passed my Bachelors degree with 80 % of Marks which was something great at that level. I stood overall 2nd in my University. And again, i shut mouths of those who always have one or more questions to ask.
And again, they came up with questions when i opted to shift to Sydney, Australia for my Masters studies. But they had to bear my retaliation when i passed my Masters Degree with a great Distinction in all my subjects. And again, they threw questions, when i was having a hard time to find a suitable job for myself after passing out from my University asking me why dont you shift back to India ? What\'s the point in staying a foreign land without a proper Job ?
And funny part of it is that, Today when i have two jobs to deal with they are again questioning - What is the need of working so hard ? You can earn less and stay happy in India ? Why dont you come back ?
Analyzing this 10 year period of my life i think i never had time to think about myself. Although, i was succeeding in my endeavours but they were simply the result of my retaliations, my reply to their questions. The more they asked, The more i Rised.
I sometimes wonder, not every human becomes a millionaire and successful as Bill Gates, then why we ask such questions and make life so complex for our kids, throwing questions on them and ultimately make them confuse what they want to do ?
My simple Question to people out there is, WHY DON\'T WE MAKE LIFE SIMPLE ???
But life is mere answering questions and shutting their mouths from time to time. Their questions never end nor do your replies.
For all your days prepare
And meet them ever alike
When you are the anvil, Bear -
When you are the hammer, Strike.